Why I Don’t Have A Boyfriend

I tend to keep this subject to myself because it’s a stressful topic for me. I’m very hot and cold about boys and there are many reasons why. I haven’t really been in a relationship until I first started getting sick. I honestly really have not had the opportunity to put myself out there and just socialize in general which is a big contributor to why I am not in a relationship. I’m also not in one because no college boy is mature enough to understand what I go through on a daily basis, and I am not going to put up with that. It’s hard seeing a lot of my friends getting in and out of relationships these past 3 years because I have not really even gotten a chance. It just piles on to the stuff that is different for me because of my illness. Obviously, I do not let my illness define who I am but it can define what I am and am not able to do. Socializing has been a really rough one. Then there’s just my personality—I cannot commit. I have not found one person I’ve actually liked yet. Yup, I am picky and that’s just how it’s going to be. My fatigue is what holds me back most from socializing activities. I get tired out very easily and it can be exhausting just getting tired out! At the same time I did wish I had some regularity in my life. I do wish I had someone I could hang out with and do things with but now is clearly not the time.

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4 thoughts on “Why I Don’t Have A Boyfriend

  1. I can relate so much! I don’t have an illness, but I find it very hard to find someone to be in a relationship with. First of all, it’s extremely hard for me to meet people because of how introverted I am. I go to work and come home, and that’s it. I’ve had guys talk to me online, but I always get too nervous and scared to meet them. I’m also extremely picky like you. It’s really hard for me to develop a romantic attraction to anyone. I’ve been single for 4 years now, and my last relationship was short lived. I even broke up with him because the romance wasn’t there and he just felt more like a friend. I already consider myself demisexual, but I actually think I might be demiromantic as well.

  2. It’s okay girl ! That’s everyone can relate until we find ‘the one’ . I had this boring routine life and I couldn’t feel anyone yet . It’s very tough to find one to have good attitude and quality.I am very honest and picky and I have been single till now .I am waiting for the right time even though it’s hard to stay single .

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