I tend to keep this subject to myself because it’s a stressful topic for me. I’m very hot and cold about boys and there are many reasons why. I haven’t really been in a relationship until I first started getting sick. I honestly really have not had the opportunity to put myself out there and just socialize in general which is a big contributor to why I am not in a relationship. I’m also not in one because no college boy is mature enough to understand what I go through on a daily basis, and I am not going to put up with that. It’s hard seeing a lot of my friends getting in and out of relationships these past 3 years because I have not really even gotten a chance. It just piles on to the stuff that is different for me because of my illness. Obviously, I do not let my illness define who I am but it can define what I am and am not able to do. Socializing has been a really rough one. Then there’s just my personality—I cannot commit. I have not found one person I’ve actually liked yet. Yup, I am picky and that’s just how it’s going to be. My fatigue is what holds me back most from socializing activities. I get tired out very easily and it can be exhausting just getting tired out! At the same time I did wish I had some regularity in my life. I do wish I had someone I could hang out with and do things with but now is clearly not the time.