Living on a Roller Coaster

So tonight I decided to veer off the October blogging challenge because I haven’t been feeling well this week. I’ve gained so much insight from my days where I struggle. I’m a completely different person. When I get sick I remember how precious life is because mine changes in a flash. Not to be dramatic but on my bad days I feel like death. There’s no way to sugar coat it. I tend to also get down because my body feels so awful. I feel like I’ve died inside and my body hates me. I think the hardest thing is that no one at school understands what I deal with on the regular. I tend to make my life on social media like I’m normal. I give off this different image like my life is a perfect college students life when in reality I live a completely different one. Since I give off this image people don’t believe me and don’t understand. It’s so hard to explain why I want people to see my life in a different way than it is. I don’t like to make it public all of the time and it’s annoying to complain or bring pity on yourself. So now I usually don’t talk about it because I don’t want to be treated differently most of the time. So if anything takeaway that people make their life seem so different—it’s like sugar coating the reality. 

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One thought on “Living on a Roller Coaster

  1. Just be you whether that mean you’re in pain or not. If people don’t like it, it’s their problem. Living in this kind of pain is horrible and can be so lonely. Sorry you’re struggling.

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