Little Signs of Acceptance

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When I was first diagnosed with Autoimmune disease I had a hard time accepting it. I often went back to the first day I ever got sick and questioned what I did wrong and if there was anything I could do to fix it or change. In reality, there was nothing I could have done to improve my life. I did all of the right things: ate a healthy diet (most of the time), exercised, went to school, and made sure I was social. I lived to be the best me I could and still do now to this day.

Once I learned about the disease I started remembering different things that had happened over the course of my life until this day.  I was saddened because my body was giving me little hints all of my life that me or my parents never picked up on. The first thing I remembered, was sun rash. I am a fairly pale person who never tans, and gets itchy bumps when I’m out in the sun too much-which could be considered a hint. The next thing is how fatigued I’ve been since around puberty. I never feel satisfied with any amount of sleep I get, I don’t really know what it’s like to have a good nights sleep. The next one is pretty funny. When I was little I watched disney channel, and this girl was on, showing her talent. Her talent was being hyper flexible. This girl was able to bend her thumb in a weird way, and also to her thumb to her forearm. After I watched the segment, I tried it and realized I could do it too! But I never would  have known it was a correlating sign of autoimmune disease. Lastly, I would get this awful headaches were I was super light sensitive and noise sensitive that I just had to sleep off. Currently, I am in a place where I’ve had a headache 3 ALMOST 4 YEARS STRAIGHT. How is that even possible?! I had no idea that that could happen. I remember when I first had my headache I read an article on a women who had had headaches for a few months straight. I had just brushed it off and thought “that will never happen” to me but look at me now (LOL, I think I beat her out of this one now).

“You get what you get, and you don’t get upset”

I’ve known this phrase since grade school. It’s such an important phrase in life of acceptance. I’m learning that it’s okay I’m like this, clearly someone has a plan for me. I feel like I was given an opportunity to teach people to be grateful, as well as teach myself. I’ve really grown as a person since I’ve been sick, and it’s truly an honor. I believe I got one of the greatest gifts. I know, I’ve said this in my blog before but it’s truly how I feel. I see the world in such a different way then a lot of people, and have learned to love all of the little things in life, as well as overcome adversity and achieve great things. If you only take one thing away take: “You get what you get, and you don’t get upset” because once you learn the true meaning of that phrase, you can do anything you want in life.

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