Wow, I can’t believe it’s almost here. I finish college after this semester! It flew by so fast. I feel like I just started last semester! It was honestly such a great experience and I am so glad I got to go to the school of my choice. I have so many great memories and met so many amazing people from all over the world.
This semester I am taking SIX classes. I am honestly kind of nervous because I don’t know if I can handle it but we will find out soon enough! My goal for this semester is to keep myself as busy as I can handle. I want to take a yoga class or some sort of fitness class on top of my trainer. Now that I have a car I won’t feel like I can’t do anything like I did last semester. I am also feeling a lot better than last semester which is so nice. Last semester I was a complete mess. I could barely make it to class let alone get out of bed.
Today I go to one of my most important doctors appointments. I find out what the next move is now that I’ve finished my 4 month trial of IVIG. I’d honestly want to stay on it because it’s help me a lot. The problem is that I have to fly home once a month for it. It’s really hard to balance school with missing a full week of it and then it is also so expensive to just keep flying back and forth. For this reason, I am moving back home after graduation. Of course I wish I could be more independent but I can’t right now and I have to accept my fate for right now. Eventually I will be able to go my own way when I am in remission and feeling a lot better.
My energy is still really bad. My doctor tried to take me off some of my medication two days ago but that didn’t go so well. I got so so sick and in so much pain that I really needed it. I am kind of nervous to keep trying to come off some medications but I really need to wake up. I honestly don’t think it’s my medication, I think its my disease but I am no doctor. Whatever it is I need to get it fixed ASAP. I really want to be able to live my life to the fullest and that’s not happening right now. But, I have to say getting a glimpse of what I used to be like the other day was really eye opening. I have come really really far.
I am really hoping this semester will be one of my best semesters yet! Fingers crossed!