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What It’s Like To Watch Yourself Get Sicker

Posted on October 18, 2018 by Sydney Rose

There’s no way to sugar coat it, it sucks. But it also can be very depressing. Imagine living a life where you were just like everyone else. You didn’t have to worry about taking all your medicines or doing too much in a day. You had normal people problems. Now, you look at yourself in the mirror and you don’t see the same person as you did 4 years ago.

In fact, I honestly don’t remember much of my personality before I was sick. I do have some memories and stuff but I don’t remember what I was like. Every time I stare at myself in the mirror it’s like a lost of piece of my normal self. It’s gotten to the point where it doesn’t even phase me anymore but it sure did when I first got sick. I used to always go back to October 1, 2014–the day I got sick. I try to think if maybe I did something different that day that it wouldn’t have ended like it did. I know that obviously this was brewing in my system a long time and we couldn’t have changed it but still.

Watching yourself getting sicker is something I don’t wish on anyone. To be honest, you are so engrossed in how you feel that you don’t notice it from the standpoint that you would when you feel okay. It can get very discouraging and feel like the world around you is falling apart.  But is all a freak of nature, and doing the best you can is the only thing you can really do. I take each day as it comes, and try to do the best I can everyday. Being tired makes me want to not do certain things like workout, but I still do it. You have to keep pushing forward and not hold yourself back. I have been doing a lot worse lately, and that been really bringing me down. I still do the best to get out of my bed when I can, and leave myself alone when I can’t. It’s just the life I have to live.

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10 thoughts on “What It’s Like To Watch Yourself Get Sicker”

  1. Tonya LaLonde says:
    October 19, 2018 at 4:10 am

    Strength is embracing weakness and allowing God to be strong through you. Being humble puts you way ahead of the curve spiritually. It doesn’t feel beautiful but it is. ❤

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    1. Vince fitness UK says:
      October 19, 2018 at 10:02 am

      Amen

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    2. Sydney Rose says:
      October 19, 2018 at 1:02 pm

      You’re right. Thank you!

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      1. Tonya LaLonde says:
        October 19, 2018 at 1:32 pm

        ❤❤❤

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  2. Dianna says:
    October 19, 2018 at 5:19 am

    Your story touches me. Stay strong!

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    1. Sydney Rose says:
      October 19, 2018 at 1:02 pm

      Thank you!

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  3. lillyevechristie says:
    October 19, 2018 at 8:29 am

    I am so sorry you aren’t well. I think you are very strong, you have rationalised it, you know what your battle is and you are fighting. Keep going, just day by day, I’ll be thinking of you. x

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    1. Sydney Rose says:
      October 19, 2018 at 1:02 pm

      Thank you so much!

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  4. Vince fitness UK says:
    October 19, 2018 at 10:09 am

    Hi Sydney one thing I came to realise is the power of God and prayers embrace the energy and it does wonders, you may not be healed physically but will be spiritually, and maybe just maybe miracles can happen.
    Believe me I have been in a bad way before but hey that’s a story for another day …
    Stay strong and make that step one day at a time ☺️

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    1. Sydney Rose says:
      October 19, 2018 at 1:03 pm

      Thank you!!

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