This is kind of a dark touchy subject but I recently knew two people who passed in the last week. They were both in their 20’s. I don’t understand how it works. Does our body completely just shut down and we’re done forever? Or is there an afterlife where we become something else or go somewhere else? I’m honestly terrified and dead people scare me. Like when the guy I knew died I couldn’t sleep. I slept with the lights on because I had recently talk to him. I think I honestly have bad aniexty. It’s just such a weird concept. I want to believe there’s an afterlife so bad. My mom and I were staring at the ocean last night pondering it. I honestly can’t imagine loosing my parents. They’re my rocks and I don’t even want to think about it. EVER. But I also think about me dying young. I REAAALLLY don’t want to and hope I don’t. But then I think about how sick I am and wonder if that’s going to contribute to what happens to me. Like my doctors say I should live a relatively long life. But sometimes I think otherwise because of what it feels like some days. Sorry for the dark post guys, just felt like sharing what was on my mind.