So tonight I decided to veer off the October blogging challenge because I haven’t been feeling well this week. I’ve gained so much insight from my days where I struggle. I’m a completely different person. When I get sick I remember how precious life is because mine changes in a flash. Not to be dramatic but on my bad days I feel like death. There’s no way to sugar coat it. I tend to also get down because my body feels so awful. I feel like I’ve died inside and my body hates me. I think the hardest thing is that no one at school understands what I deal with on the regular. I tend to make my life on social media like I’m normal. I give off this different image like my life is a perfect college students life when in reality I live a completely different one. Since I give off this image people don’t believe me and don’t understand. It’s so hard to explain why I want people to see my life in a different way than it is. I don’t like to make it public all of the time and it’s annoying to complain or bring pity on yourself. So now I usually don’t talk about it because I don’t want to be treated differently most of the time. So if anything takeaway that people make their life seem so different—it’s like sugar coating the reality.